Amazed...Overwhelmed...Speechless

Well, it has roughly been about 24hours since we heard news that we have been accepted by our adoption agency, All God's Children International (AGCI), and SO much has been happening in that time. My brain has literally been spinning like a web at a thousand million miles an hour in just as many directions! And God is already proving himself faithful in seeing to my every need (which, for the most part are emotional right now!) Not that I didn't know this before, but God has surrounded me with a community of very supportive people (some of whom I've never met in person!) whose love and generosity I cannot even find words to express! For weeks now I have worried and stewed over how this will all come to fruition (and I still am...despite what you will read below...I'm thick-headed). Eric and I do feel called to care for the orphan through adoption, and despite that knowledge I have wrestled continually with doubt since this journey began. What if I'm wrong about what I believe God has called us to, how can this be accomplished, what if people misunderstand the reasons we're doing this, what if we fail, what if they say this, what if they say that, I'm not a good speaker...things come out wrong! Do you think it's coincidence then (I think not) that I have been reading the section of Exodus where Moses, like me, has his own back-and-forth excuse session with God when He calls Moses out of the desert to lead the Israelites out of their bondage and slavery in Egypt? "Who am I that I should go (Ex. 3:11), Suppose I go to the Israelites and... (Ex. 3:13), What if they do not believe me or listen to me... (Ex. 4:1), O Lord I have never been eloquent...(Exodus 4:10)" Needless to say it did not take me very long to see how I fit this scenario. And the conclusion I have come to is this: Like Moses, I'm thick-headed...I battle with doubt (even when I know the truth) and many times I have the faith of a mustard seed...especially with regard to financing an adoption (which seems an insurmountable task). I know that throughout this process I will encounter Pharoahs. There hearts will be hardened toward this calling of ours...they will not get it-the big picture that is, possibly even after countless evidence to the contrary...as some have put it to me, their journey will not be our journey. (I pray that the Pharoahs are few! :) There will be others whose eyes will be opened to something they have never seen or perhaps looked at before...the cause of defending the fatherless. There will be those who question what we are doing and why. And there will be those who answer the call to advocate for the orphan in some way - through prayer, through orphan mission work, through gifts of emotional or financial support to those called to adopt, through donation of time or talent, (to you I say thank you...in advance...you will never know the ripple effect you will have). But the point that someone dear to me made today (with impeccable timing I might add-thanks Kim)...God's plan has already been accomplished. She's right...it's deep. it's profound. it DOES knock my socks off!